Ghost hearts.

If you're going to convince lots of people of the importance of something true but novel, you have to defend every little thing all the time to paint the worldview they're missing. It makes a person only want ppl who get that worldview in personal space, because who wants to be depleted in spaces meant for replenishment.

1. vera farmiga's norma bates
2. jessica jones
3. penny dreadful
4. wednesday addams
5. the girl in the girl walks home alone at night

I'm just as creeped out by a guy who sends me a dic pic as i am with a guy who calls me a 'decent lady of virtue'.  dude has sent me 3 msgs on okc over months, he's being persistent thinking i'm going to be flattered by this 'you're not like those women' misogyny.  keep your pedestal dude, I dont want to be on it.  try speaking to a woman like she's a person.

If I ever have to be served dinner by a bengali housewife that is dead inside - just no.

Thousands of miles away a fool still has the ability to break my heart.

Let Cave Men Be Cave Men.

Witches should have written more history books.

Substanceless romantics and pragmatic icicles.

when you move through the world sworn to secrecy about so many aspects of your life, it gets lonely.

Vincent here walked over to my seat and asked if I eat bacon (didn't think I ordered anything with bacon, said no), explaining the grill is used to cook everything so he'd cook my burrito on foil to prevent cross contamination.  I am floored.  No one's ever gone out of

gone out of their way like that.  This town might be hella white but it's not colorblind it's colorbold.  :D.

Cool, some dudes are nice enough.  They make the cut not being douchebags.  But they only talk about ideas or activism or work.  And when deciding if they are worthy partners with whom to make a life, I have doubts they know how to wash dishes, take out the trash or bring chicken soup for an ill loved one without being told to like a clueless child.  In short, they don't know how to handle adulthood, thinking of adulthood as simply a nuanced grasp of entertaining things or society-level things.  The interpersonal is nonexistent, even though that's the obviously basic starting point.

pepper spray won't protect you from the people you're supposed to be able to trust.  you need cynicism, sense of self and cleverness to do that.

music in the pnw defaults to the postal service.

1) what is the best parking finder app?
2) why when i look up 'bulletproof dress' do I get slinky things that are only supposedly fashionably "bulletproof"? useless. 
3) what is the best cure for the frustration of wanting future inventions to exist now, without investing time and money into making things oneself?

I want the paycheck of a mediocre white man for the same lack of work.

my body and my mind dies when i'm in boston.  my heart dies when i'm in LA.

some muslim artists (NY?)
Leslie Hewitt
Chantelle Truscit- Progress Theatre
Nsenga Knight
Musa Syed 
Bassam Tariq
Omar Mullick
Laylah Amatullah Barayan
The Reminders
G Willow Wilson
Khaleelah Janan Rasheed
Otabenga Jones and Associates
Jamaal Cyrus (I may have misspelt his 1st name but he's big and was an artists in residence at The Studio Museum of Harlem)
Sana Amanat? marvel

U know how ppl from abusive backgrounds tend to fall into abusive relationships?   I wonder if ppl from backgrounds of alienation are drawn to experiences of further alienation.

Sigh.

A friend said, oh he likes you, he wants to work with you.  Is that how it's supposed to go down?   I have to do work for a guy who likes me, so he can like me more?  What about he just grows enough balls to just ask me on a date?  Whatever happened to that?  Why do I have to labor through an entry fee when he's the one interested?  is my time and energy not valuable?   Is this the setup to how everything here on out should go then? (Dude wants something, I do the work to make it happen? ).  No thanks.   Lazy shits.