what is it with people, when you say no to them, and even try to leave on a good note, think you're 'superior'?  setting a boundary to protect one's needs is not a superiority complex and people who use that card want to guilt trip you to spite you.

love is just what predators and the weak use to take advantage of you.

Pitch The Right Comparison Project

“Both Terry and I were so green when we were pitching [Ghost World]. We would tell executives that we wanted to make anotherKing of Comedy [1982] or Crimes and Misdemeanors [1989]. Big mistake. The executives would look at us as if we were insane. It’s like saying, ‘We’d like to take $6 million of your money and shred it for an art project that we’re doing.’ It didn’t take long for us to start saying things like, ‘We want to make another There’s Something About Mary.’ We had no intention of doing that, but you must at least make an effort to be reassuring.”

Daniel Clowes – Ghost World, Art School Confidential

what is it with sensitive ppl who get frustrated easily and start making it all about themselves.

http://www.businessinsider.com/fast-growing-and-valuable-startups-to-bet-your-career-on-2015-10?utm_source=dlvr.it&utm_medium=twitter

http://campaign.wellesley.edu/this-is-the-place

everything feels so vast i cant handle it.

How being a certain minority has its privileges.  for example, being muslim has streamlined me into connected circles in DC, academia in boston, classy venues in LA SF, london

what the fuck do i even want to say ever

my attitude toward a mainstream basic person telling me to conform be like FU

90s music: now that I'm not trapped in it, I actually kind of like it. ex: TLC, salt n peps

http://everydayfeminism.com/2015/10/life-lessons-white-privilege/

I am kinda tired from all the thoughts that I thunk today.

If the ratio of battles chosen to number of opinions is low, the volume of passive aggressive facebook posts will be high.

equality is me being as mediocre as a white dude and getting the same paycheck

aunties: the good minions of patriarchy

Anytime I have to publicly comment on Islamophobia, hijab, racism, I feel like I am wasting so much time and energy.  Like literally it takes up my time and energy to contest dumbshit narratives being imposed upon my existence by 'colorblind' liberals and outright xenophobic conservatives.  Identity politics is a huge time suck mostly for minorities and women, and I don't want to play that game.  Every time I do because it's just way out of hand and there needs to be some perspective, I feel like my hand has been forced.  I would much rather exert brain power geeking out over fantasy novels and new         music.  Instead my energy is occupied with this shit.

People throw a lot of things at me in the form of their perceptions and expectations.  It's work to break it down and reframe the situation so they understand exactly who they are dealing with.

I envy the decisiveness of narrow-minded people who judge others quickly.  So easy to move forward with any decision at all when everything is so simple.  The quality of those decisions is another matter.  Not thinking things through or being closed off to realities is the best way to achieve comprehensively destructive results in pursuit of a singular goal.

you can only cover up so much stupid with money.

if you say that you're thirsty and really need a glass of water, and a person that cares about you gets up and gets you a steak, should you be grateful?  you politely say no thank you, and then they insist you eat the steak, adding potatoes and veggies, telling you how juicy it is and how much the steak is good for you with its iron and protein, and how no one else can even afford steak in the restaurant you're in, how you're really missing out.  And now that it's been ordered, you'd really make them feel bad for paying for it, after all they did it for you.  Then they order a few more steaks for you to go, and the waiter says what a wonderful person they are and so thoughtful too.  Do you still politely say no thank you?  Or do you get up and get a glass of water and dodge this person as best you can.

(hint it's a metaphor for people who don't care about boundaries or listening to the person they care about, because of narcissism that is socially reinforced.)

sometimes i stalk stocks i dropped like exes.

All my friends are always moving around and have been for decades. How on earth should 'vote local' even matter to people like that. systems don't catch up with the realities of life and end up not representing people that way.

every time I get a sensibility for one whole cohesive thing, my instincts rebel against its purity and want it juxtaposed with another cohesive thing, because that one truth isn't everything, it is lying to itself if it thinks otherwise.

everyone's bubbles feel so unbelievably oppressive.

handicapped parking sign
stop signs
-willful ignorance

the biker in his lane as it curved 'the biker moved'
-not taking responsibility

blaming someone else for things she's responsible for
pay credit card bills 'he said sth about paying it'
it's her bill...

the rat and the broken vase
the washer dryer even though winter is coming that doesnt get bought bc a $170 bidet is more urgent?

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when he says not to spend too much time with the handyman fixing things in the basement like a warning, when he already brings up divorce as a threat to keep her in line, when he flirts with everybody without repercussion and has attempted to sleep with ppl who are not his wife (this is confirmed), nobody says anything to him.  instead, he has them all wrapped around his little finger.  it is creepy the way everyone has over-enthusiastic things to say about what a great guy he is, from the bank teller at citizens to the indian chick who is my age.  note: when you hear this about some guy, run, run fast.  the way he controls her finances and makes her come off as irresponsible and putting such a burden on him.  what an incompetent burden, paying for the mortgage entirely for almost a decade.  it's a way to keep her in the dark, and control the narrative to make her feel bad so she doesn't question or challenge him.  he's the responsible, unappreciated caretaker for a frivolous, expensive wife who doesn't even cook for him.  and she does cook for him, all the damn time, and puts meals and tea on the table, only so he'll ignore it and walk out to go spend time with friends.  then come home when there's no food on the table and raise hell bc there's no food on the table waiting for him.  and no one can reproach him.  if he's asked to cover the food in the fridge, he won't.  he'll start yelling about being lectured at until you do it yourself.  he'll leave half eaten bread out in the open, and all kinds of food from time to time.  it doesn't matter how many times you tell him to put things away.  so then now there's a rat problem.  he yells about how she wastes money on rat poison now.

fuck allll this shit.

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he is like a spiteful pos that would burn the house down rather than let her have it.

http://www.mortgagenewsdaily.com/10052015_freddie_mac_insights.asp

“The greater distance between who you truly believe you are, who you want to be, and who you are in public—that’s what puts you at risk.” D. Freitas.

http://www.slate.com/articles/life/low_concept/2015/10/every_conversation_between_a_parent_and_a_child_in_four_conversations.html?wpsrc=sh_all_dt_tw_bot

A series of "he'll do for now"s.

http://www.rolereboot.org/culture-and-politics/details/2015-10-why-we-need-to-stop-devaluing-femininity/

http://everydayfeminism.com/2015/10/nice-guy-lies-shouldnt-believe/

http://www.upworthy.com/people-are-dyeing-their-hair-like-space-and-its-awesome?c=ufb1

http://www.theonion.com/video/area-man-unsure-if-hes-male-bonding-or-being-bulli-33920

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/soraya-chemaly/mass-killings-in-the-us-w_b_8234322.html

fuck your tranquilizing gradualism.

http://spsook.tumblr.com/post/130432191127/dont-confuse-critical-thinking-with-dogma-or

http://goodinaroom.com/blog/communication-skills/?omhide=true&inf_contact_key=633450bd147d43861f4c95dec1f4e8e3e7f7556a19b9949ad24f6230f96bcc44

Vapid intellectualism - no meaninful investment or commitment to the arguments presented.   The absence of conscience or acknowledgement of its relevance in a show of cerebral exercise to demonstrate sophistication or superiority.  Not to be confused with the neutral definition of intelligence presented by Aristotle (the ability to grasp opposing views without going mad).  Often displayed by educated groups from privileged backgrounds.

http://weird-sister.com/2015/10/01/28-lessons-learned-from-a-year-of-being-unreasonable-for-brown-and-black-poets-our-chosen-families/#more-4358

the advantage of being an enigma is predators don't see you/won't spend time figuring you out to discover your vulnerabilities/prey on them.  the disadvantage is non-predators don't see you either and it gets lonely.